So....yesterday I went out with my 'friend', and we talked,(talked= he asked me directly about the dating because subtle was never his thing ^^') and we had the most awkward and uncomfortable conversation of all my life. I told him that I can't help me but see him as a friend, and I don't really feel like having a boyfriend now, mostly because my life it's been a mess the last two years and I really need to calm down first to think about that thing. And because I suck at relationships.

We are still friend, and we will still see each other and go to the theater and all..but it feel awkward :/ I hate that.

On the top of that, I was feeling sick yesterday and todays is much worse, I have a cold and I'm sneezing all the time. Like woha.

Note to myself: Never sneeze against wind again, even it was an accident 8( urgh...

I just come back from watching Star Trek. I was never much of a fan but the movie was good.

Spock quoting Sherlock Holmes= EPIC WIN

But, the perfect end of an already horrible weekend was my friend (who’s a total sweetheart but I don’t really feel like that for him) asking me to be his girlfriend. He wanted to ask me the last weekend, but he couldn’t and wanted to ask me were we were on the park, but in the end he asked me when we were on his car coming back.

I was all ALSHASJASGSG brb dying from embarrasemend (so was he)…but I told him the truth, that no one ever asked me that before (he said that he couldn’t understand why and called me pretty..) and that that I’m a complete mess this year. But we decided that we can have some more dates and see how it goes. I’m not sure, I like him, but I don’t’ like him that way.

Someone shoot me please.